I want to disappear or maybe just run away and not be me anymore... Me that is awkward,that has no life that has a lame escape of making up stories in her head and can't manage to put the damn thing on paper I know things happen for a reason and all that other garbage but WHAT is MY REASON????

Thanks to Tumblr I actually understand that my main problem is anxiety mostly social but that is what the issue is ..yeah it took tumblr to understand why I am the way I am . I completely blew off the day to day thing I think because I don't want to think about day to day and honestly if not for Scott (my kid) I don't think there would be a day to day
I am having issues dealing with the general chaos going on at the moment he has a friend visiting from out of state for 10 days , and he may or may not have a job in a couple of days and the house is in the process of getting fixed up and all of this is causing my anxiety to get out of hand and Chief wonderful, loving Chief with him we are breaking every rule in our little section of HELL ( I need out of this place SOOO BAD!!) I'm lost and confused and really don't know what to do I need answers and truly have no idea
Love the fact nobody reads this though maybe using this will help