Again more of the same, If I could have one wish it would be for a job ...Silly huh but that really is all I want my kid was here talking about a bike he is going to buy and I had to say something about the computer part because well damn he is out living his life (Thank God) and I'm stuck here like a prisoner with no hope and no expected release date I know if I had the right processor on my computer I would have already had a job I wish God could send E-Mails and could tell me hey things are going to get better it will work out just hang tite a little longer because his signs just are coming clear for me at all :(

I don't want much out of life I never have ...A job to pay my own rent buy my own food and be able to go anywhere I want WHEN I want and I never seen to be lucky enough to get that and I can't figure out why. Like now I was supposed to be able to get a part for a computer that would allow me to FINALLY get a job and then the car screws up and boom nothing
I know and truly believe things happen for a reason and I accept that don't really like it but what are you going to do I would just love to understand what my reason for being on this planet is what is my purpose?

Are you thankful? I'm asking because tomorrow is Thanksgiving day. I've been sitting here trying to find a reason to be thankful and really I can't tomorrow is simply going to be another day no more no less. I'm tired which isn't surprising because I'm always tired I wonder what it feels like to be happy?..really happy ? I'm starting to think that is something I'll never know and the scary part of that thought is that I have come to accept that notion.Wake me up when 2013 is over